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A True Servant—A True Master

by Swami Bhaktivedanta Madhava Maharaja | 2021 | 174,865 words

This page relates ‘How to deal with physical illness,...� of book�"A True Servant, A True Master" which offers a collection of 128 handwritten letters by Sri Srimad Bhaktivedanta Vamana Gosvami Maharaja—a revered figure in the Gaudiya Vaishnava tradition. This book showcases the profound spiritual insights and practical guidance on executing devotional service and addresses both Sadhakas (male practitioners) and Sadhikas (female practitioners) with equal respect.

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Letter 60 - How to deal with physical illness,...

Praises of Baidyanath and surrounding area � How to deal with physical illness � The fortune of associating with ղṣṇ � Śīla ѲᲹ’s natural humility � Assertions of individual free will in a political situation � Unheeded warnings about taking on the service of deities � Harsh words about a devious ūī

श्री श्री गुरु-गौराङ्गौ जयतः

śrī śrī guru-gaurāṅgau jayata�

Śī Bālānanda ĀśSantosh Ashram� P.O.—Ashram Karanibara, Deoghar (Bihar) 14/1/1981

Śī ṣṇ-caraṇe daṇḍavan-nati pūrvikeyam

—ĔPrabho! I just received here your international letter dated 9/1/81. Prior to this, while I was in ʳܰī-, I also received the letter you sent on the 31st of Ś屹ṇa (16/8/80). At the time, my body was ill so I was not able to reply to your letter. Do forgive me for that.

After consulting with my doctor,—�, and—�, I have come to Baidyanath-Deoghar on 6/12/80 for a change of climate. Since I came here, I have been quite well. I am taking medicine regularly, taking , and taking rest. I have not written a letter in a long time, and now that I am writing one or two letters, I see that I have fallen out of practice.

The water and air in Baidyanath-Deoghar is very healing. The natural scenery is also very enchanting. We have rented a house named “Santosh Ashram� from the management of Śī Bālānanda Āś for a monthly 200 rupees. The environment in the ś is very beautiful. In all four directions, temples, ponds, gardens of fruits, flowers, and vegetables have enhanced the beauty of the ś. Vaidyanāthajī of Deoghar is a holy place famously mentioned in the Ś ʳܰṇa. Not too far away, about thirty-five to forty miles, and especially worthy of seeing, is Śī Madhusūdanajī atop Ի Mountain. This is where the churning of the ocean took place. I am very sad to find out that you have been attacked by typhoid and that Dīdī was so sick that she was losing consciousness. I hope the both of you have since recovered. May Śī 󲹲 keep you healthy and may you remain absorbed in hari-bhajana without any worries.

The perils of material existence have been and always will be there. 

मन-स्थि� करि�, निर्जन� बोसिया, कृष्�-ना� गाबो जब�; संसा�-फुकारा, काणे ना पशिब�, दे�-रो� दूरे रब�

Mana-sthira kari�, nirjane bosiyā, kṛṣṇa-nāma gābo jabe; saṃsāra-phukārā, kāṇe nā paśibe, deha-roga dūre rabe[1]

“When I can steady the mind, sitting in a solitary place, and sing the name of ṛṣṇa, then the call of material existence will not enter my ears, and the afflictions of the body will remain far away.� 

What you wrote is true: 

“Whatever occurs in worldly affairs, let it be. Whatever is going to happen, let it happen. Beholding the pure ղṣṇ and touching them, etc. is the only thing that brings auspiciousness to the conditioned soul.�

You two will never be cheated of the association of ղṣṇ. Śīpāda—�ѲᲹ and various other pure-hearted ղṣṇ frequent where you are. This is a matter of great good fortune. You two have received the special mercy of the ղṣṇ, so there is no reason for you to have any worries. It is true that the supremely merciful ղṣṇ appear on the doorsteps of those immersed in family life in order to deliver and protect them from the blind well of family life. Their merciful glance is surely directed towards the souls of this world. �

You have written: “How long will it be till we see you again? I do not want to be cheated of Vaiṣṇava association in any way in this life. I am a ṛhī. I have no qualification. Though we have committed hundreds of offences, out of mercy, please forgive us. I do not have proper knowledge of language. I do not even have the qualification to write properly. All I wish for is that we attain your mercy and that your merciful gaze stays upon us.� Only you can judge whether or not what you wrote me was accurate. Am I your superior, your custodian, or judge? I have never considered myself as such, nor do I now. So, leave me out of this matter and do forgive me. You cannot recognize who I am. That is what is sad! I never make ղṣṇ accountable to me, and I have no desire to do so. I am involved in the mission, and, as per the rules, I am bound to do something. I specially request you to kindly not take offence. They have invited me to go to Kashinagar. Is it not possible to go without invitation? Am I the only one who has lost my independence as an individual, so much so that I cannot tread a path in that direction? Whenever I get the chance and convenience and have a need to, I will go right then. I have a sort of personal independence and viewpoint, which even my people in the mission do not know about, and I do not let anyone know about it.

I have repeatedly obstructed your efforts to establish your temple in Kashinagar because I knew that after a few days, you would meet with the dilemma of rendering proper -ū (service and worship). Śī ձԳٲ Samiti is not going to take on this homestead temple. I already explained this to you, so you would know beforehand. But you do not really listen to what I say, and now you are stuck in a difficult situation. Now, as I said, it is quite inconvenient. You cannot abandon Ṭhܰ’s to go anywhere for even one or two days. And you cannot even fathom how much more inconvenience you would be dealing with if you were actually doing the yourself, with your own hands!

I have not seen your [book] Bhakti-īپ before. When I received [for my approval] the submission from the ʲٰ office, all I did was tell you exactly what you needed to do [to correct it]. Some objections have come, and that is precisely why we [the ʲٰ team] have had to take certain measures. It certainly is and will remain my responsibility to see that no one finds fault in you and also to make sure that you do not create any sort of inconvenience for the mission, knowingly or unknowingly. I have written to Śīpāda—ĔѲ� and—Ĕto bring the rest of the copies of Bhakti-īپ on the day of Śīla Guru ѲᲹ’s disappearance festival. I heard you perhaps sent a single copy of the book to the [ʲٰ] office via someone. When you yourself were present, was it not proper for you to deliver them with your own hands? In the future, though, please do not print this book again. This too is my special request.

I submit one more matter to you. I have heard that—�, who abandoned the Śī ձԳٲ Samiti , has at present left his saffron cloth and is working as a ūī at your place. He can leave the and go home and enter family life, but I have not been able to understand whose permission you received to keep him there. Is this how you are going to stay on good terms with the ? He could not find work in Belgachi at a tile factory, so it would be best if you did not keep him there. That sort of arrogant, convenience-seeking, and whimsical person can never find auspiciousness. If you let him go from your temple, I will be free of concern. I will not have a chance or the time to go to Kashinagar before Śī Vyāsa-ū. I still want to go one time later.

For at least three months, from January onwards, I am forbidden to give classes and lead īٲԲ. So, if I go, I will have no option but to just remain seated. Please accept my prostrated obeisances. Convey my affectionate wishes and blessings to everyone there. Iti

ղṣṇ--,
Śī Bhaktivedānta 峾Բ

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Śṇāgپ, Gurudeva! Kabe Mora Sei Dina Habe (1) by Śīla Bhaktivinoda Ṭhܰ

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